The two halves of January.

I've heard tales about January and it has always been one of the months when I painstakingly approach life knowing that something huge will likely come around to poke at me and see if I will break.

This uncanny feeling I have towards January started when I ended up losing my phone two January in a row. Since then, it almost feels like each January has something uninspiring waiting to knock me around. This year's January wasn't any different.

To be fair, It was already in the middle of the month when I remembered how my January has always been. I had a conversation about that with someone on 14th January and I was filled with excitement when I was narrating how this January so far hasn't been as rough as the previous ones. On one hand, I was happy to see how things were unfolding. On the other hand, a part of me knew that shit will likely go wrong.

That doesn't mean I'm pessimistic. Nah! I was just being realistic when I was having that feeling. I also wasn't scared, as far as whatever was to come wasn't coming to take my life.

Lo and behold... It took less than 24 hours after that moment for January to pounce on me with its full weight.

It would help if I could get into the details, but I can't do that because I'm still contending with the uncertainty that life is throwing on my path. What I would say is that I got pushed by adversities and it got to a point where I felt a lot of emptiness about the things I was building. The same things that inspired me became the things that filled me with negativity.

Now that we've come to the last day of the month, it's quite obvious that the January that started so well is ending on a rough patch. In my experience, the difference between the first half of this month and the second half of January is like the difference between heaven and hell.

There have been reasons for panic but let's not get it twisted.

I've had that moment of disappointing occurrences and I'm still trying to solve some things till this moment. I genuinely don't know how long it will take for me to get back on track and set my life on an upward trajectory. All I know is that I'm fully committed to what I can achieve for the rest of this year.

I'm alive. So, I know there is hope.

Thanks For Not Missing Any Full-stop or Comma.
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