I Expected Better from Myself.

Honestly, I would say I do feel disappointed in myself sometimes. It has happened a couple of times, and one of the main reasons is that I set goals for myself and then end up not meeting them. Even when some of the situations are not entirely my fault, it still hurts because I always expect better from myself.

A recent example really got to me because it was a mistake I had made before. Right now, I don’t have much money on me, so I decided to use the Hive I withdrew to buy a particular cream and some drugs that i really needed. I was just in a hurry that i ended up sending about 80 Hive to the wrong account. What made it more painful was that I had made the same mistake last month when I sent 20 Hive to that exact account.

The correct account is @roqqulovehive, but then i mistakenly sent it to @roqqulovehivee. It is just one extra “e”, but that small difference cost me money that I really need at the moment. It seems like someone created that account for people like me who would not be careful enough to notice the difference. When I realised what I had done, I was very sober and extremely disappointed in myself because I had already made that same mistake once. I kept asking myself how I could allow it to happen again.

That money was my only option for now, and losing it is still affecting me because I am also trying to save towards getting something important. At the moment, I honestly don’t know how to fix the situation. The only thing I can think of is to look for another way to get money and move on from it.

Another thing that made me feel bad was when I checked my wallet yesterday. My Hive Power is now very low, whereas I used to have over 1,700 HP. I even had plans to increase it, but it has reduced massively. This particular situation is not really my fault because I don’t get enough money in school to handle all the necessary bills, so I have had to use what I have.

Still, it is a painful thing to see, especially when I remember how far I had gone before. It makes me feel like I am going backwards. However, I have already told myself how I want to work on it. My plan now is to post every day and stay consistent so that I can build my Hive Power back up again.

Even with all these, I am trying not to be too hard on myself. Yes, I made a mistake, and yes, things are not the way I want them to be right now, but I believe I can still improve. I just need to be more careful, more patient, and more consistent.

Thanks for reading.