Sunflowers

“Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all.” — Helen Keller.

If I could buy a million sunflowers and spread them on green grass, lie on them and run my hands from up to down while staring at the blue sky, I would. Hopefully, the sky is blue and bright that day. If I could spend eternity with my favorite person in the entire world, I would. I could read all the books in the world, I would without thinking twice. And I could go back in time and have a conversation with my younger self, I would seize that chance and tell myself so many things. All these would happen only if I could. I have lived many years on earth to realize that life doesn’t work based on what we wish we could do. Life doesn’t work on wishes, but we are free to wish and dream regardless. There are so many things I wish I had done differently. So many mistakes I wish I could go back in time to correct.

If I could press a big green or red button on a machine that would take me back in time to meet my younger self, I would. I would press that button so hard without thinking twice.

Pray, it would be nice to have a conversation with that lanky 10 year old boy who wanted to explore beyond limits. The little, beardless and curious bird. The flightless bird. I would tell my younger self to respect my older siblings more than I did. Looking back, I wasn’t the best younger sibling, but I know I could have done better. My siblings and I fought a lot of times. Sometimes, because I failed to respect them and other times because I complained about a behavior I never liked. I would sit my younger self down and with a very firm voice, I would tell myself to obey my siblings whenever they requested anything. I would tell myself to treat them like kings and queens because in years to come, they would mean the world to me.

I would tell my younger self to spend more time with my siblings because in years to come, life would throw us in different directions, so distant that it would take months before we set eyes on each other. Growing up, I feel I didn’t cherish my siblings more than I ought to have. Of course, we had fights just like every sibling would, but if I feel we wouldn’t be staying together when we grow older, I would have spent more time with them.

I would tell my younger self to try more things. I would tell my younger self to squire as many skills as possible. I love to explore, but somehow, I didn’t explore that much in my younger years. The “spirit of exploration” engulfed me when I got into the university. I believe things would have been better if I had tried more things.

This is my entry to the India United prompt. The title is: If you could talk to your younger self.

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