Reborn: From Then To Now

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Humans change. In my opinion, one of the most beautiful things about humans is their ability to change and adapt to situations and their environment. Humans don’t only change, they also grow. Yesterday, I was weak and helpless, today I am strong and resilient. That is one of the perks about being human. Looking back, I have come a long way. My whole life has been a whirlpool of experiences; the good and bad ones that taught me lessons, whether it was in a good way or a bad way. The good ones that put smiles on my face. I don’t know how it works for every other person, but for me, I grow every day. How do I know this? Sometimes when I think about decisions I made in the past I laugh at myself and tell myself that I was so unwise. That is one proof that I have grown.

The topic for today’s Hive Learners’ prompt is; WHO ARE YOU? Take a deep breath, close your eyes and try to picture the kind of person you were 10 to 15 years ago. Not just physically, but also in every other aspect. Are you still the same person? If your past self from years ago saw you now, would you recognize yourself?

If my past self from years ago saw me now, they would walk past me and wouldn’t realize it, and it wouldn’t be because I have gained a few inches. It wouldn’t be because I have added a little flesh and it definitely wouldn’t be because I have a grown full beard. It would be because the anger in my eyes is gone. Years ago, I was a cranky teenager. Whether it was puberty or the people I got close with in boarding school, the fact remained that I was cranky and irritable; I would get angry over every slightest thing. I am the last child of the house and the last borns can relate to the feeling of being told to do all the chores, particularly washing plates. It always made me angry and I would start shouting and grumbling every time.

I threw temper tantrums like I had the “anger machine” growing inside me. The smiles on my face vanished and I started wearing a frown most of the time. If I had continued that way, maybe I would have developed wrinkles or a worn-out face, but God helped me through my mom and I changed. I overpowered the temper tantrums and covered them with smiles. Today, when you ask me who I am. I am a person who wears smiles. I am a person who stopped frowning. I am a person who stopped throwing temper tantrums. Of course, there are still times when I get angry, like when I'm looking for something or when my data stops working, but compared to before, I have changed and grown.

Another reason my past self wouldn't recognize me is that I have learnt to embrace people and lean on them whenever I need help. Yesterday, I wrote about how I depend on close friends for motivation. A few years back, the old me would never ask anyone for help. Back then, I was skeptical about allowing anyone into my life. I didn't want anything to do with people. I didn't want friends. I didn't want to help anybody and I also didn't want anyone to help me. I just wanted to be on own. However, I realized that we need people. Trust me, life is better when you have people around you.

I know that people will stab you and do all sorts of things, still, we need them, especially if you are the kind of person who often feels overwhelmed. We just have to be careful of the people we lean on and ask for help. I have come to accept the truth about people; most of them don’t last forever, so cherish the sweet memories while you can.

I honestly don’t have an answer for this. I don't know exactly when things changed, all I know is that I am not who I was last year, last month and yesterday. Every day, I keep becoming better.

Thanks for reading.