The emotional struggle in weight loss

For many, many years I always had the same weight, I was not super thin but I had a healthy weight and with which I felt comfortable, but also to go down in size was very easy, it was enough to improve my diet and do a little more exercise. I had no idea what weight insecurity was beyond what society had taught me so far about what kind of clothes to wear and that sort of thing.

But things changed in a pandemic, because I had to change my contraceptive method and this got my hormones out of control, I had many physical changes and among them I gained a lot of weight, only this time, no matter how hard I tried to lose it, it wasn't easy. And that's where it all started, at some point I thought that after changing the contraceptive everything would go back to the way it was before, but the truth is that there was a change in my body and I had to adapt to it.

For the first time I felt insecure about my weight, but I could also feel how it limited me in many aspects, we were in pandemic even so I did not have to deal with more comments than my own, until it ended and I had to face the world. I must admit that it cost me a lot, people seeing the great physical change I had could not help but say something about it.

And me, I couldn't deal with anything they said, so I avoided going out as much as I could. The thing is that I feel that having gained weight and having to lose it and not being able to do so became a recurring thought, it affected my mental health because I was constantly sad and desperate for not being able to lose weight. But above all I was very self-conscious, and it was very hard for me to stop being so.

Today, especially for my health, I continue to strive to have a healthy weight, what has worked for me has been to eat foods that nourish me but at the same time do not inflame me, in addition to antioxidant juices and to be in movement. As I said, losing weight is not a simple process as it used to be for me before, but in this process that has been going on for a while now I have lost 3 kilos, but beyond that my mentality has changed a lot.

It is still a necessity to lose weight, to feel better physically well, but now I do it without torturing myself, the process is already difficult, so I celebrated my small achievements, and I understand that my body needs patience, love and understanding, as it now deals with hormonal processes. Complexes were something unnecessary to deal with, and although I have not been able to get rid of all of them I have been slowly getting rid of some of them and replacing them with gratitude because of what my body does well, like keeping me alive for example.

There are bad days when I just want to lose weight and that's it, those days are kind of sad for me and my energy goes down a lot, but I give myself time, I let myself feel and then when I am a little better I start again with my process of feeling better physically and emotionally. Now I can say that there has been a big change, that although I will continue to strive to lose weight, it is no longer because according to me I should look thin, but because I want to feel good, with more agility and better health.