WE251|| Experiences that hurt ...
And it was just at that moment of pain, when a few years ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer and the healing process began to take effect.
Not precisely because I had gone through years and years of therapies, of managing my emotions, of using resources to manage them... Anyway, if not, because such a terrible diagnosis in a matter of minutes changes my life and yes, life can change in an instant.
I am sure of one thing; God granted me gifts and talents to understand death, I have an intuition about it; sometimes, it even surprises me.
Many years ago my connection with my beloved friend Betty, was a solid bond, she helped to take care of me during my illness. At some point, during my treatment; when I was going through the worst of the chemo, he told me verbatim
"you can't die yet, I can't take care of all your things Jani."
Betty was an extraordinarily determined and courageous woman. When I was going to have surgery, her illness was just beginning, the one that took her almost unexpectedly; I had to travel and she, my friend, became seriously ill. His death happened in my absence and for me and my family it was really hard.
By things of life itself and analyzing the circumstances of his death; I realized intuitively and after listening to a message that gave me a feeling that I could not explain to you Galenkp...
I know for sure that she, decided to take my place. This was the infinite love connection that existed between the two, it was honest, and genuine. I am convinced that things happen when they have to happen "at the right time" and this deep learning that God showed me, through cancer, a moment that was very hard, helped me to understand it.
When I could understand that she, Betty, took my place an intense heat ran through my body, as if my blood will increase in temperature, my thoughts clouded and suddenly I just understood it, what happened, and that here I am writing to you in response to the proposal made by you Galenkp, it just happened.
My friend Betty always knew how to support me in times of crisis, her help was suitable, unconditional, both materially and spiritually. For that and more today I honor her for having been in my life and I share this story with these lines that I write for this weekend experiences community.
No one knows until they live it, the deep pain that is felt when a loved one dies; I understand that death hurts more those of us who stay, than those who leave. I honor your teachings, your company, support, you took care of me at the beginning of my illness and left unexpectedly.
How much pain I feel remembering you. Rest in peace my beloved friend Betty 💐.
Janitze 🌹
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