Ya no espero para poder tener una sonrisa feliz. | I can't wait to have a happy smile anymore.

Y no digo que no esté bien compartir o tener momentos con personas o siempre compartir con familiares; el tema es cuando ese esperar no es para que seas mejor, sino que es como una forma de retenerte para que no hagas nada sin primero entrar en crisis, pues si bien debemos ser autónomos y seguros de los pasos que damos, a veces nos encerramos en una caja por el tema del miedo a que quizás todo salga mal por no esperar como otros dicen.

En mi caso es así y más que todo siento que es por acciones inconscientes, puesto que cosas que cualquier adulto hace se han visto tardías por ese tema de esperar, y no me refiero a hijos o pareja, puesto que en eso sí tengo claro todo, sino cuando padres te siguen viendo como una persona que aún no está en momento de nada. Por ejemplo, trabajos con horarios tardes es algo que debería esperar, pues no es bueno; hacer acciones como cualquier papeleo deben ser acompañadas, pues ir solo no es momento, o incluso salir a una fiesta es algo de personas que no esperan o no tienen suficiente madurez.

Y claro, esto no es una queja, es un punto de vista crudo que pongo para poder aclarar más lo que quiero dar a entender. A veces sentimos que las personas con las que estamos o los hijos que criamos no suelen estar listos y deben madurar o esperar más, y la realidad es que debemos dar un empujón, pues muchas veces están listos para avanzar desde mucho antes. También siento que pudiera ser una forma de actuar ante el miedo a que tal vez se alejen o sean independientes y sentir que se pierde el control puede ser un punto para actuar y persuadir en esperar de manera ilimitada.

Y es que por eso es que yo no quiero esperar; prefiero salir a dar una vuelta que esperar a que todos estén de acuerdo o que la larga espera llegue a su fin, y no, no es que me vaya a comportar irracionalmente, solo que en ocasiones hay que tomar las riendas y, aunque a las personas alrededor pueda causar conflicto, hay que hacerlo. En mi caso es poco a poco, pues no puedo estar siempre encerrada en casa, no puedo evitar convivir con amigos por lo que crea o no mi familia que haré, o no puedo evitar vivir una etapa de mi vida por el hecho de que no sientan que esté en la edad o momento.

Por eso cada vez estoy dando pasos pensados para mí y por mí, y que todo cause esa satisfacción y sonrisa que busco, porque a mí me criaron como buena persona, pero también debo explorar, aprender y vivir un poco más por mi cuenta y demostrar que puedo sonreír por mí misma. Y bueno, espero sea de su agrado esta forma de interpretar y abordar el tema propuesto por @talentos, y es que la explicación a esto es porque he conocido a muchos nuevos amigos que están en esta situación de una espera impuesta y no siempre es por culpa consciente de su entorno, y siento que puede ser una forma de expresar esta perspectiva del tema. Así que, sin más, gracias por leer.

English

Hello everyone, the word "wait" has been something I've heard a lot since I was a child, and while it's kept me from being hasty, it's also limited me greatly. It's even been a mark that appeared in moments when I had to make a decision or for something as simple as buying a candy for a moment.

And sometimes we're taught that we should wait for the right moment for things, but unintentionally, a fine line is crossed between waiting for that phrase to become a transparent barrier that prevents us from doing simple things or actions we want to do, and we get blocked by this word. And well, what makes us wait when we really shouldn't? In my case, it's like an inner voice that appears and begins to question me with those phrases like "you'll do that without sharing," "what will they say if they find out," "it's surely not right," and of course, they used to be stronger and stronger, but they almost always cause me to conflict with myself.

And I'm not saying that it's not okay to share or have moments with people, or always share with family; The issue is when that waiting isn't for you to improve, but rather a way of holding you back from doing anything without first going into crisis mode. While we should be independent and confident in the steps we take, sometimes we lock ourselves in a box out of fear that everything might go wrong because we didn't wait, as others say.

In my case, this is true, and more than anything, I feel it's due to unconscious actions, since things that any adult does have been delayed by this issue of waiting. And I'm not referring to children or partners, since I'm clear on that. But rather when parents continue to see you as someone who isn't yet ready for anything. For example, working late is something that should wait, because it's not good; doing things like doing any paperwork should be done with someone, because going alone isn't the right time, or even going out to a party is something people do who don't wait or aren't mature enough.

And of course, this isn't a complaint; it's a crude point of view I'm putting forward to further clarify what I want to convey. Sometimes we feel like the people we're with or the children we're raising aren't ready and need to mature or wait longer. The reality is that we need to give them a push, as they're often ready to move forward long before then. I also feel it could be a way of coping with the fear that they might drift away or become independent, and feeling a loss of control can be a reason to act and persuade them to wait indefinitely.

And that's why I don't want to wait; I'd rather go out for a walk than wait for everyone to agree or for the long wait to be over. And no, it's not that I'm going to behave irrationally, it's just that sometimes you have to take the reins, and even if it may cause conflict for the people around you, you have to do it. In my case, it's little by little, as I can't always be locked up at home, I can't avoid spending time with friends because of what my family may or may not think I'll do, or I can't avoid experiencing a stage of my life because they don't feel I'm at the right age or time.

That's why I'm increasingly taking steps designed for me and by me, and that everything brings about that satisfaction and smile I seek, because I was raised as a good person, but I also need to explore, learn, and live a little more on my own and show that I can smile for myself. And well, I hope you like this way of interpreting and approaching the topic proposed by @talentos. The explanation for this is because I've met many new friends who are in this situation of imposed waiting, and it's not always due to the conscious fault of those around them, and I feel it can be a way to express this perspective on the subject. So, without further ado, thank you for reading.