To a Warrior

Death is such a scary thing, it’s something that changes the entire dynamic of life. You’re left with so many unanswered questions and a broken heart.

I was going through this community and all I could feel was pain, it added to my grief. How do we lose people we love in a twinkle of an eye? How do we move on from the pain without losing our minds?

Whoever came up with the idea of creating this community is a genius. Being able to pen down your thoughts while grieving is therapeutic, an activity we didn’t know we needed.

I lost someone dear to me recently; it’s been three weeks already, but it feels surreal, it seems like false information that was passed to me, and I desperately want to wake up to everyone debunking it.

I don’t know how this lady and I moved from saying Happy Birthday to each other to us laying her to rest. Is that humanly possible? I still don't understand how she left.

We had a birthday tradition: she would wish me ‘Happy birthday” on the 14th of September and I’d do the same the next day. It was our little tradition, one we boasted of being born in the same month, hours apart, and having similar handwriting.

The one person who showed me tough love, one who came from a place of compassion and deep concern. The one person who never gets tired of worrying about me.

I’ve been living in denial since I heard the news, but today was a confirmation that she is gone forever. A confirmation that I’ll never hear her scold me and draw me closer afterward, a confirmation that I’ll never see her face again or hear her laugh at my silly jokes.
I don’t know how life is going to be without having her around. Referring to her in the past tense and adding “Late” before her name is heart-wrenching, something I’ll never get used to.

I am so hurt, so hurt that it feels like the pain is never going to go away and I sure as hell can’t trust time to heal me.
My only consolation is that she is resting, free from all the pains and wickedness of this world. She was a warrior and fought various sicknesses for years; she deserve to rest❤️

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Loads of Love
XOXO