THE COURAGE TO BE
Getting rid of things that are not really important but also not useless will be one of the hardest choices to make because every time, it’s as if there will be one more use for it but that’s not true. Growing up to know the kind of person I am, I recently learned something interesting about myself that I have been keeping for so long and not letting go even when I should have done that a long time ago. According to the #kiss for this week, we are asked to share the first thing we would remove from our lives and the most difficult thing to eliminate from our lives.
So the recent something I learnt about myself is the fact that I’m battling with negative self talks. The moment things start going the other way, I start putting all the blame on myself and start becoming less appreciative of myself in any way. If there is one thing I want to eliminate so badly from my life, it has to be these negative self talk. I want my mind to always be filled with the most beautiful positive thoughts all the time because that’s the only way I can easily win against myself (the negative one).
I battled with negative self talks not because I wasn’t optimistic about things but because I started making a lot of decisions as a young girl and it made me feel like a bad decision maker whenever something goes wrong but interestingly, I have made really good decisions too but at that point, it’s like I had forgotten all the good times and I just swim in the pool of my negativity. Seeing only the worst I have done, was how I lived my life for so many years. Oh! Are you wondering how I manage to still turn out this way? Well, it was only because of the amazing people God gave to me.
As for one of the most difficult things for me to eliminate from my life, that will be a fear, the fear of taking a step. Most times, I find myself stuck in a place for a very long time without any visible growth and that is because I’m scared to take a step and do what I have to do. It is difficult for me and it has held me back a lot of times. Entering into the third level of my schooling, most of my lecturers prefer it that as students we get interactive and contribute to the different lectures. Even when I’m sure I have a good idea on a topic, I always find it hard to stand on my feet to say something.
This is where self doubt and negative self talk comes in. So, it there are things I want to eliminate from my life to make it better, it will be those negative self talks and the fear of taking a step. I’m working hard more on my mind by practicing mindfulness. Always trying to ask myself why I’m thinking about what I’m thinking about and just do things without formally inform myself so I don’t talk myself out of it.
Thanks for reading through. ❤️
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That's a very tricky one to eliminate, indeed. Especially since our brains find it so easy to talk s**t behind our backs, right? However, it's worth remembering you are a wonderful, bright, beautiful human being. Now and always <3
It is indeed a tricky one. I could have actually called other things but I know once I get rid of this one, I will find solutions to other aspects of my life that needs fixing.
Thanks for your beautiful words. ❤️
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It’s my pleasure. ❤️
There are some times we make wrong decisions and we blame ourselves and that's quite reasonable in my opinion. In my case if I blame myself, it's good for me as I try to be better to make up with my past mistakes but each people think differently.
Fear of taking the first step is a very common thing among people and I also fear to take the first step and that's why it says that first step is always harder.
True. Most of my negative self talks also push me to become the best but positive words do that too and I’d prefer that more.
That’s right. The first step is mostly the hardest.
Thanks for your input, Intishar. 🥰
Those are areas where many of us feel stuck in life, not realizing how we can actually take possession of holding onto the positive thoughts but instead wallow in self pity, guilt and blaming ourselves. These things make us see ourselves as not able and then limiting us to trying new things. I love how you are taking steps in eliminating them and finding more better way to live a good life.
Well said, mama. It’s a struggle but I’m very sure it is possible and that’s why I’m putting in the effort to get the results I want.
Thanks for your contribution, mama. 🥰
Fear is inevitable but when you try as much to battle it you will surely triumph. I also love the fact that you understand your own struggle with negative self talk and I am glad the people around you are making a good impact on you.
Yes, Abdul. Having fear for certain things keeps us on our toes and guide us to do things when we should.
Yes o, thanks to those people, you inclusive. 🥰🤲