SHINE SO BRIGHT!
Recently I have been having this constant feeling that I’m not doing things right. It keeps coming and I have come to realize that it is making my light burn low. It’s making me lose my taste as the salt that I should be. I always feel like running under a bushel to hide because I feel like I’m shining too bright in a dark place. And I’m kind of quick to forget that in the darkness, I’m meant to shine so bright to eliminate darkness. I gave into so many compromises and now my light has grown so dim I can barely see the next step ahead of me.
As a little girl, I was fearless. I was brave and really smart. You know those children you meet for the first time and just can’t stop looking at them because of how smart they displayed? Yeah, that was me. But as I grew older, things became different. I became fearful, more conscious of hurting people than saying the truth and that was exactly how my light started burning low. As the light that I am, I was no longer confident in illuminating in the dark. Instead, I started getting more comfortable in the dark and because of that, I questioned my light.
The moment I started questioning my light, everything changed. I see fault with everything I do. I questioned the things I have believed in even when I was sure that it was the truth. What if there were exceptions?. I’d usually say things like that to myself. Sometimes when people ask me why I believe in the things I believe in, I grow quiet not because I don’t know why but because I have been given a reason to doubt or a reason to have double thoughts about the things I have been learnt since I was a child.
But now that I think about it, the truth about how things work or should be like will never change just because of my unbelief. My dimmed light? I need to reignite my light - my flame. I need to start burning so bright because there are souls to save and rescue from darkness. I know how it feels when I’m searching for something in the dark and the light is turned on. Darkness seems like a comfortable place to be in but the more we stay in the dark, the harder it is for us to love the light. We even get to that point when we hate that we are beginning to radiate light and that shouldn’t be.
We should let our light so shine that people will see us and find the right path through the light we give. Whether we accept it or not, until we let our lights shine, a lot of people will be lost in the dark. The people we love included. My light has been dimmed for too long. I actually thought I was shining too bright but little did I know I was already getting too comfortable in the dark. Right now, I know I can reignite my flame because I have you by my side. I make mistakes and when I don’t see those mistakes, I hope you see them and guide me.
Thank you for reading through. ❤️
Atimes, we put off our light or dim it without realising it because we may feel we're standing out too much or we start asking questions like.. am I doing too much? Is this how it's supposed to be? If I tell them or say it out loud, will it be accepted? But then, there's a saying that goes "if you've got it, flaunt it"!
I like that you've realised it and the fact that you're talking about it means you're doing well.. keep it up.. keep the fire burning
Thank you so much for this response . ❤️
I shouldn’t be apologetic for being blessed instead I should use what I’m blessed with to glorify the one that has given it to me, which is God.
its hard for most people to speak up, to be different , rejected.
but it really doesnt matter because ultimatly we are all unique and if we are people pleasure we will always stay in the fog and never find our match.
I totally agree with you, Cherie. 🌹
I think it is a phase, a normal one. Life isn't a straight road. When a road becomes too straight, drivers can over speed, and the end would be a disaster. The occasional blues are the norms. We shouldn't just dwell on them.
It's a phase, and this too shall pass.
Thank you, Gentleshaid. ❤️
This can be a very difficult transition. We will always have a choice, of course. There was a time where I had stayed in the dark for many years, and chose to stay there because I didn't see the point in the alternative.
I hope you're able to ignite the flame again soon 🔥🙏 Be kind and patient with yourself, never try to force something if it isn't there. Good luck! Please update us soon...