SELF LOVE - LOVE FOR OTHERS

Loving oneself sometimes seems like the hardest thing for me to do but then I remember that it is almost impossible for me to love others as much as I should if I find it hard to love myself. I had to literally learn how to love myself because I want to love others and be a source of happiness to them at the very least. So many people are going through a lot of shit just like we are too so the least we can do for ourselves and them is loving ourselves better because that's the only way to know we have to show others love too.

How hard can it be to put a smile on someone's face? There have been so many times when I get some crazy mood swings and I end up rubbing it on those that don't even know anything about it and sometimes this makes them sad too but I find it hard to let go of that mood but then I only get to think of the next person when I keep seeing them being hurt by my mood. Having mood swings happens to me a lot and it's mostly when I don't have anyone to talk to or something tangible doing (now there is room for unnecessary thoughts).

Like I easily get lost in myself, I easily feel like not talking to anyone and just few people around me can help me get off that mood. I guess it's because I have a lot of things running through my mind that I've lost control of, so once in a while they get the best of me. As it stands, I don't even know exactly what makes me happy anymore because I just want to learn how to be happy in any situation I find myself. Like someone once said, happiness is a choice.

Just waking up everyday gives me joy, seeing the sun rise and set puts a beautiful smile on my face. Hearing music play elevates my spirit and keeps my body/soul together. Knowing that I have what to eat, water to drink work to do makes me happy. Seeing a message from my friends and family or a call preferably makes me feel loved and special. Like everything makes me happy and they also have the tendency of making me sad as well.

When I'm sad, I just want to be alone and by being alone I mean getting some rest from everything happening to me at that moment. When I'm angry at a friend I try as much as I can to hold back because I believe it's wiser to stay calm in a times like that because I might just end up feeling regretful later. I always try as much as I can to put myself in the place of others before doing some things so I don't end up hurting someone all because I'm hurt too.

I believe that when one person is sad, the other person should be Happy or at least be able to help the other person feel better before showing how they truly feel. Sadly, in our world today, it's hard to see such a scenario but at least there are few people who try to do this and it works out well. But as humans we always like to get attention to ourselves and sometimes find it hard to see others having the spotlight.

By loving myself, I get to understand more why I need to love others. Especially when I know that whatever a person is going through, I might also be the one in that situation too. It may be good or bad but what matters is I acknowledge the fact that it could be anyone (me). It's just interesting how my choices change when I try to put myself in others shoes before doing anything.

We all have one thing going on with us at different times that we find it hard to even share with even our best person but then one thing we can do to help ourselves is to make sure we are telling ourselves the truth which might be hurtful most times. Like I said it's a goal to achieving self-love, we have to be able to tell ourselves the truth at all times because we love ourselves and that's only when we can tell the truth to those we love too.

I don't know who might really need to read this but I just tried as much as possible to just say what was on my mind and I hope it makes sense to someone other than myself 🥰.