HIS GRACE REACHES ME

Seeing this topic, I was thinking that I’d have something or a lot to say almost immediately but I was wrong (now that I’m proofreading this, I realized I have so much to say, lol). I always feel like I forget important things a lot, I know I do but right now the ones I can remember doesn’t seem like they were as important as I thought they were anymore but I think that’s because it has passed and everything is very much better than it was back then. I have different times when I have forgotten something, though little but important at least to me.

For this week’s Hivelearners topic, we are asked to share a time in our lives when we skipped doing something important and the effect it had on us. Many times, people have made a comment to me saying that I’m very good at remembering things but I really wonder differently because I have so many times when I have forgotten really important things like calling my parents, a friend or learning Spanish on my Duolingo app or even as little as upvoting or even reading a post here on hive at a time when I planned to. A lot of things have actually skipped my mind and the interesting part is that even the one that will actually be best for this topic have as well skipped my mind, lol. I guess I have moved on.

But, without thinking so much about it, one particular one keeps coming to my mind so I will just share that one instead. In my 200 level, I was a bit overwhelmed during my exams and most times I make plans of studying at night since I’m not really someone that likes night reading but because I know I have exams, I kept challenging myself to read at night because the time at hand was limited (it always feels limited). Well, there was this faithful day I had a paper by 3pm and because I was really stressed the previous day, I decided to rest all through the night and I didn’t read for that paper. The next morning, I woke up quite late and still had to do all my usual activities before I started reading.

I was all pumped to start reading and it was going well until 20 minutes after. I started feeling tired and exhausted. I needed to rest again I told myself and then this other part of me reminded me that my exam was in few hours from then and I haven’t revised enough. I was in a dilemma within me but deep down, I knew that once that thought of resting comes, there is almost nothing stopping it. Well, I prayed to God about it and then, I was able to extend that studying for an hour and some minutes but immediately after that, my brain stopped accepting stress and started shutting down to rejuvenate. Immediately I noticed this, I quickly retired to my bed and set an alarm to wake me up 1:30 later. At this time, it was exactly 4 hours left to my exam.

I slept off and after sleeping for the time I did, I started feeling like I should wake up but for the fact that I haven’t heard my alarm ring yet, I was still waiting because I didn’t want to rest lesser than I planned to. And that was how I slept back again. And Lo and behold, the alarm never rang. I woke up 30 minutes to the time my exam was slated to start. Ahh! I shouted and jumped off my bed at the same time. It was so funny and unexplainable. I noticed I was beginning to look for an excuse to give as an explanation of what has happened but I guess my brain was satisfied now.

Well, at that point, I knew there was no more reading for me so I quickly went to freshened up, eat and immediately headed out for my exams. I was at least happy I got there 5 minutes before the exam started. While I was on my seat, I kept wondering what I’d write for that exam and then I bowed my head to pray. Back then I haven’t read Jeremiah 10:23 but I know that the ways of a man is not in himself. Yes, I didn’t prepare very well for that exam but I know that was not the major determining factor that guarantees how well I’ll perform but God is the Lord over everything.

I decided to stop worrying and ask God to help me remember the ones I have read and see the things I have studied. Behold, the questions I saw were from a particular topic I read for that short hour I revised and God so kind, I remembered most of them. Long story short, I got an A in the paper and interestingly, it has a higher credit load than some courses. When 200 level second semester results came out, I remember how much I kept thanking and praising God because there was nothing anyone wants to tell me, it was God.

So anytime I skipped doing anything important, I know it is totally on me but then, I always try not to forget to ask for help when it gets harder. God has always been someone I confide in anytime for anything. It probably happened that way for me to learn something or it’s actually just best that I forget but I feel it isn’t until after that time I realize this part. Maybe I would have spent more time reading unnecessary things and stressed myself for nothing but God granted me rest just immediately after I read what was needed.

I know I’m a lazy student because I see people put in the effort but then, I always prefer to do the little I can because whether I put in the best of efforts, it is still God that grants to me the best I want and not really because of how hardworking I am. Does that mean I won’t just work for anything? No, that’s far from it. The idea is, I won’t try to work so hard and when the results come out all good I will start thinking it’s because of how hardworking I am because that’s not true at all. It’s all by God’s grace.

Thank you for reading through. ❤️