When Nothing Makes Sense Anymore, what do you do?

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The last time I was this emotional was the day I wrote the post "Inleo: I Will Be Here Until there is no more Here". In that post I let my emotions flow, stating my commitment to the community and readiness to fight my way through the odds that seems to be against me for being recognized as a good community player and a contributor to the Inleo project. It has been over a month since I wrote that post, and despite feeling overwhelmed with weakness and a feeling to call it quits, I am still hanging on hoping that things will get better soon.

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Roosevelt, the great late American president once wrote "When you get to the end of your rope tie a knot and hang on." This basically describes my condition today as a member of the inleo community. The fight to get back the trust of the Inleo community moderators seems to be lost, but for the love I have for the community I have to hang on still to the rope. Perhaps, there could be a change soon.

I have asked the question in a thread some time ago, when all you do doesn't make sense anymore, what do you do? The question was typically about me and all my efforts to get back to being recognized that keeps vaporizing and slamming back on my face. Nothing I do makes sense anymore, and as each day goes by, it seems like I am wasting my time trying to get what I can never find again. And the feeling of giving up is overwhelming.

Perhaps it is for my resolve to be here until there is no here that I am still standing. I have learned the wisdom of acceptance, accepting my fate, and doing what I think is right to do to restore the broken relationship even if it means a Camel's head has to pass through the needle's eye. But, I feel I have gotten to the edge of the cliff and it's only the knot that I have tied that keeps me hanging on.

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Was it really a lost fight

Every challenge has both positive and negative impacts. While the focus is more on the negative impact because they are directly tied up with the problem you want to overcome, the positive impacts are there to make you a better person when you eventually get out of your jail.

Within the time that I had a strained relationship with the inleo curators, I have learned a great deal on how to do things properly in this space. I have learned that being a community member is not all about what you can get, but much about what you can give. What you get is equivalent to what you give. This is a great lesson that awakens an engagement spirit in me.

I have also learned a great deal on improving my content presentation and how to structure content to appeal to readers. I wouldn't have known anything like this if I didn't experience this tough journey in the Inleo community. I have also gotten the opportunity to learn how to use the Inleo editor and other Hive frontends editors for content optimization. These are things that I never knew I could do before to make my post look good. I will have @tsunsica to thank for all the improvement I have made.

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The big question that remain unanswered

Should I leave the Inleo community or stay put?

Straight to the point, I have got nowhere else to go. Funny right?

I know you would like to remind me that Inleo is only one community on the Hive platform, and that there are several other communities that I can join for a better chance of being recognized. That's right!

Well, since the time I joined the Inleo community, I stopped looking for other communities and made this place my home. I have seen potential for growth here, not only in terms of earning rewards from my engagements but more about the whole ecosystem. The investment opportunities here are huge and I won't let these opportunities slide for any reason. My dream for success on Hive is tied to the Inleo community. This is where I want to invest my time and resources, until I am sure I am good enough to try other Communities projects.

While I am sure there are other Communities on Hive where things may be easier for me, I found no reason for me to call it quits to this place where I have met some good people that have impacted me in many ways. For these people and reasons stated above, I will hang on until my redeemer comes.

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I know this is so short and look awkward to be posted in Inleo. But, they say where a person failed that's where he rises. I have learned from my failures and have shown that I can be a good community player by engagements and support in whatever ways that I can possibly do.

While the experiences are painful because it totally shattered my plans for the year 2023, the lessons learned from them can be handy to help me succeed not only here on Inleo community but at any web 3 platform I may find myself in the future.

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