MY GREATEST NIGHTMARE
When I finished my secondary school education, I told my father that I wished to learn a skill in other not to be sitting at home, this was a brilliant idea which my father gave me his permission but in the long run my mother got a call from her siblings stating that my grandmother is very sick and no one was with her to take care of her.
I love my grandmother so much that I volunteered to go and pay her visit, she was someone that I cherished most, she is so nice and caring, she can give you her last penny, so I love her kindness.
My father knows how much I love my grandmother and he said if that is what I want then I should go and visit her and he gave me two weeks maximum to spend in the village, I packed my bag and I left for Village, my grandmother was very sick and couldn't eat for days, I told my mother about her condition and she sent me some money to take her to the hospital, my mother was a busy person at that time, there is no how she will come to the village.
I took this burden upon myself but I think I was too young to carry all the burden then, I was the one feeding my grandmother, and my mother's siblings were nowhere to be found, they believed I could take care of their mother for them, my grandmother was not someone I can leave and travel back to the city.
At this point I was confused and did not know what to do, there were not many phones at that time and anytime I called from the business center they pushed me around, one would tell me to call another person, I was so tired of life and I couldn't leave my grandmother to die just like that, I rushed her to the hospital with the help of the neighbors and I started taking care of her at that age, I learn a lot from taking care of her because she will always blesses me, hold my hand and always pray for me anything she open her eyes to see me beside her bed at the hospital.
We spent three weeks at the hospital and I was the one running up and down for her, I explained everything to my father that I could not leave my grandmother alone which he accepted and gave me more time, my Grandmother was discharged and we came back home, I was so happy and I thought that was all.
Two days later after which I saw that she is better, I decided to tell her that I would be going back to the city and she nodded, I knew he wasn't happy but I needed to go back, I was not happy leaving her too but my mother came with a plan of getting a maid for her in the village and I was so happy with that.
My greatest shock was in the morning when I had packed my load and I went to my grandma's room to greet her as my morning routine, she asked me to sit beside her and she started praying for me, I was happy but not so happy because I am leaving her not knowing that she is the one leaving me, after praying I noticed that she is not talking loud like before, I put my ear near her mouth all I could hear was goodbye and that was how my grandmother died.
I screamed because I was so young to experience that, I took care of her, does that mean she was not fine before leaving the hospital, so many thoughts were running through my head, I cried as if I wanted to follow her, my grandmother was a great and nice woman, it is so sudden and till now I couldn't erase that memory from my head, it took me months before I can sleep alone, it was like the movie because I do see her in my dreams and we do talk like we used to do in real life.
This situation was bigger than me at such age because other people were running from their responsibilities even my mother was not available to take up her responsibility, I was way too young then but I had to chest everything that came out of it, this memory shakes me that I detest most of my mother's siblings up till date. It took me months before I realized that Grandma had gone for good, I couldn't cope with the shock I got from such experience.
This is my entry for this week's episode of hivelearners community prompt of #hl-w105e3 which is tagged "EMBRACING THE DIFFICULTIES"
What a very sad and scary experience. I can't even imagine what I will feel if I experienced something like that, I will probably even blame myself for her death but the truth is that you did your best despite your age, it's just that God decided it was time for your grandmother to have her final rest. May her soul continue to rest in peace
My dear, it wasn't easy but I still have all the memories, how it happened and how I screamed. I believe that was how God wanted it. Amen
You are such a courageous lady who volunteered to go, visit and care for grandmother. This shows your big heart attitude. Sorry to read about your grandmother death.
With the passage of time you learned to be alone without your grandmother and you learned the lesson of taking responsibilities.
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I had to be with her because she is very kind and so caring, I too all her responsibilities and I am glad that she died in my arm, thank you for your support
Wow, you were way too young for that. I can't imagine the shock you went through. You are a really strong woman, God bless you.
My dear, I went through a lot, I was in shock for months, I had constant nightmares and I hope she is resting well
She is definitely resting well.
I'm speechless
The way your mother's siblings acted towards their sick mother was inhuman, they could have at least visited her before she passed. I can't even imagine how agonising the pain must have been for you at that young age. Witnessing someone you care about pass away right in front of you is something I would not wish upon anyone.
I'm just glad you recovered from the experience.
It was a nightmare when I witnessed her death, I couldn't balance for months because I was too young to have such experience.
What a sad experience
This is trauma! in one of its highest forms. I would have been so scared and I probably would have blamed myself for the death but I like that you were able to accept that it wasn't entirely your fault.
My dear, I was traumatized, it affected me for days but I later overcame it because she had died, and nothing I could do to bring her back.
Sorry about the trauma.
!LUV
Thank you dear
It sounds like you went through a very difficult and traumatic experience taking care of your ailing grandmother at a young age. Having to shoulder that immense responsibility without much support from other family members must have been incredibly challenging, both emotionally and practically. You showed great love, maturity and strength in embracing those difficulties head-on out of devotion to your grandmother.
May her Soul Continue to Rest in Peace Amen 🙏
So sorry dear
#dreemerforlife#
Amen
Thank you dear
Life does bot always offer us things the way we want it. You did all you could do but you could have prevented the must happen from happening. However its a very distressing one. Accept it just as life happening to you. God knows kws the best
#dreemport
What you had to experience at a young age was really tragic. Memories like this tend to stay with you forever. Just remember that you have your grandma's blessings and perhaps forgive your relatives.
#dreemerforlife