How far I'll go.

Maybe I could do better.....
Maybe I'm not just making the right turn, or maybe I could help myself in so many way... It's just so many maybes... Or maybe I just don't need to do anything different what about that.

All my life I have always been caught in the middle of doing what I think is right and what the society think is right. There are so many societal expectations and belief... And deep down I want to do better... Be better, I want to cut down my wings and bend my expectations. At times I tell myself, maybe I can't really do it. Maybe I'm expecting too much, maybe I'm being too ambitious just so many maybes or maybe I'm not...

I really want to spread my wings to fly but at the same time, I just want to be a good daughter to my mum. I really want to listen to this voice calling and answer the call and go all the way out and be that girl I want to be... I want to walk so hard to stand infront of my audience to speak and they would listen but what happens when I don't get it... Must I really go out there? This question has always been on my mind coupled with the fact that I've had Alessia Cara's how far I'll go on repeat for days now. I'm on a cross road, should I spread my wings and fly towards the voice calling out so loud or should I just stick to what everyone expects of me. I'm really confused if I should let it all go or I should just hold back.

Who knows maybe the voice is wrong... Who knows, maybe I might break my wing midair... Or maybe I wouldn't. Maybe I just need to explore and win and I'm sure everyone will come around in acceptance if I return victoriously. Maybe I could win or maybe not... I just want to see what awaits me on the other side. I just want to know how far I'll go and if I loose, I'd know I tried my best.