HOW I FEEL...

Lately I have been really distracted and that has reflected even my work place. Many things are going on in my head and no one around me really knows, but I will be alright. That I know for sure.

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I am the admin in my work place and my work is simply to follow up the stocks and to know when there are excesses or shortages. I am also suppose to crosscheck the accounts and to checkmate the cashier. Due to how distracted I have become things went really bad even on my watch. I just got to realize that we have shortage worth over two hundred thousand naira (about 120 dollars), I guess my workers discovered the loop holes early enough and capitalized on it. As for the office of the cashier, I have not touched both the expenses and the sales book for days now. I am not much worried about the case of the cashier since I consider her good and sincere but the point is that I failed. I showed a very high level of incompetence within this period.


Since I got home, all I did was to lay on my bed an console myself with the sounds of good music. I simply left my music player on repeat and continuously played "don't worry be happy" by Bobby McFerrin. The plan was to sleep off as it plays but sleep is no were to be found. I am the type that dislikes drowning is regrets and as much as possible I try to give myself hope, no wonder I love this very song so much.



Now I have so many things on my head and I have promised myself to resume fully tomorrow. I already told them that it would not be business as usual before closure today and I will make sure I keep to that. But that does not stop me from being worried, this month report will certainly be the worse since I resume work early this year. I feel like I am the most incompetent human being in this entire world.

My greatest fear is how I am going to face my manager at the end of the month, I just pray he understands. In all though I still believe that everything is going to be alright. I hope that my previous achievements speak for me this time. I still wonder how this would have happened on my watch but still it happened😔. I only promise myself that is will not happen again.


Thinking about it now, I might have over estimated the personalities of some of the staffs. People sometimes wait for the slightest opportunity to accomplish whatever bad plans they must have had. At least this has taught me well, I have learnt that their is no reason to ever stop being up and doing. I simply have to take responsibilities for my actions and to come in terms with the fact that I have failed. We go again tomorrow, but things will certainly not be the way they were these past days...


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I think that if you scrutinize properly, you will identify where exactly the missing amount went to and recover it. It just requires full attention and detective mode. All in all, I hope it works out well for you.

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