Till it comes

I had an interview last week which I thought I performed awfully. Although I did answer all the questions they asked me, I didn't do so confidently enough and felt that I didn't perform well enough for the job. To my greatest surprise I've been invited for medical screening after more or less writing myself off.

It has brought a newfound excitement as I've not hidden my deep desire to leave my current job. Not only does It come with an opportunity for that, but the offer and role applied for is a significant career advancing step. For the first time in a long time, I can almost taste what would be a major personal victory for me. While I should be comfortably brimming with expectations, my brain has decided to tread on the side of caution.

Technically medicals is the final stage before I am given an offer and very few people fail it. I am a healthy young adult with no significant medical issues over the last three decades so it should be a forgone conclusion right? Wrong. For some reason I am tormenting myself with the possibility that anything can happen and will only resume celebration when the offer letter finally comes.

I've learned that for some things in life, seeing is believing. There is absolutely no reason to base off plans and dreams over something that hasn't occurred yet no matter how close it is to happening. Of course being someone of Faith, it does sound a bit contradictory to my beliefs. Yet Faith isn't making plans on things yet to occur, but believing that what we have done for it to occur is enough.