My Gratitude Journal

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Many of us have regrets here and there and a few "Had I known" but unfortunately while there are things we can change, after realizing our mistakes, there are things we can not undo all we have to do is forgive ourselves, accept our fates and move on with life because the deed has been done.

I am sure, that when I was young, I wasn't this grateful for and about little things and that is because I was basking in my era of being a brat and having everything I wanted in a platter of gold. After all, I had a dad who made sure of that, and even when there were things I was supposed to be grateful about, and took seriously, I didn't because of my nonchalant and carefree behaviour which of course was a result of my background.

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There were things my father tried to teach and put me through when I was quite young which I should have been grateful he did and was willing to do, but instead, I took it as his responsibility and never paid attention to them because I felt I had no need for them and there are things he taught and instilled into me, although back then, I didn't understand why he did them.

Today, as a grown-ass lady, I look at my life and look back and I am grateful he instilled those discipline and life into me because I am sure that I am who I am today, and still standing strong and pushing as a result of his teaching and disciplined and morals he instilled into me.

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I am not going to also leave out the role of my mother in my life, we had our differences no doubt, she was the hot-tempered and no-nonsense mother and always made sure I had my share of cane, unlike my dad who always sat me down to tell me my fault and how I can amend them, my mom didn't have time to talk, her cane always did the talking for her and I dreaded her more than anything in the world.

There was a time when I began to wonder if she was my actual mother because of the way she always showed no mercy whenever I fell out of line, at truthfully, at a point, I didn't always understand why she could not just give me a break, why she just not give me benefit of doubt, why she could not just cut me some slacks like she did my younger siblings but now I understand better.

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I wouldn't say her kind of parenting style was better, but a few helped and shaped me more as a lady, but my dad shaped me as an individual and I am a responsible lady today as a result of both parenting styles. Something I took for granted and didn't understand or appreciate why and how they did it.

They weren't perfect parents, they had their flaws and of course, their parenting styles had some loopholes, while my dad gave me everything I wanted and spoilt me to the brim, I ended up not understanding that there was more to life than the 'NOW' I was living in, my mom corrected me and put me in place when I fall out of line and allowed the position I was in and had to get into my head.

While my dad focused more on my individual, interests, passion, and growth financially, my mom fixed me as a woman, and today, I won't mess up because of the corrections and whipping I got from my mom and I am purposed driven, career driven, ambitious, know and own myself as an individual as a result of my dad.

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Thank you for reading!!!

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