Comparison ~ A Deadly Feeling
When someone says that they are fighting their demons, they do mean it and for those people, they wouldn't want anything or anyone to trigger them, so they don't end up doing what they wouldn't want to do or please about.
Comparison has been in existence long before and if we check history, Cain killed Abel his brother because of hatred or should I say anger which came as a result of comparison. Can compared himself to his brother and when he realized that he wasn't a match with his brother and no matter what he does, his brother was going to be better than him, he grew bitter and angry, and let's just imagine that his parents praised Abel and always talked about Abel's good character or attribute, that may have fueled his anger towards Abel.
Let's note this, bitterness, anger, jealousy, and hatred as a result of comparison doesn't start one day, it is a gradual issue, a small issue, it is a process that develops over time into grown issues and if not handled properly could lead into killing like Cain did to his brother.
A young girl with a promising future has her dreams and aspirations, has someone who believes in her dreams and aspirations, and is also ready to push her no matter the cost. She was happy, she was bubbling, every day she looked at the calendar and ticked it, she was getting closer to making her dreams come through, plans were going smoothly, every necessary thing that would aid her was put in place, and all of a sudden, life happened to her.
The one person who was helping her was snatched away from her by the cold hands of death, it took him without a second thought without mercy, and there she was when she got the news about his demise, her world came crashing, her dreams died, her hope was quenched, she knew it was the end for her and she stopped dreaming.
She was angry, she was bitter, she was hurt, and she questioned God, but at the end of the day, she accepted her fate, no more dreams, no more aspirations, she was just there, living and trying to survive but with a lost mind and constantly lost in thought because she was just living.
Her dream of being an independent lady, her dream of being a business tycoon, her dream of being a career lady, her dream of living and enjoying all life has, her dream of traveling around the world, her dreams of owning houses, her dream of living the life she was wanted without a hitch to her bank account, her dream of bagging as many certificates necessary that will be of use to her, all washed down the drain.
She sat and watched her friends win, and succeed in places and things she wanted, she watched her peers live the life she dreamed, of and bag the certificate she dreamed of, while she was down there struggling to survive daily and that fueled her comparison. They were doing better than her, they were living her dream life, they had that smile of satisfaction, they were always happy, they were always this and that.
She was angry at God, angry at everyone, and angry at her only surviving guardian because they were of no benefit to her. She felt alone, she felt that God was cruel and wicked to have taken away the one person that would have made her reach where she dreamed and aspired and life wasn't making it easier for her either. Life was constantly throwing at her too much weight with her being the only one to carry it.
Comparison is never a good thing, it could bring one to a state they never imagined they would be, it's easy to compare ourselves especially in situations where we see our peers and from our point of view, they could be doing better than us but life isn't about comparison.
Life is about doing what you can and living your life, there is no need for comparison, let's not forget that not everyone is meant to get to their allocated destination at the same time, the same way not everyone will die, while some people die, some people survive and some people are being birthed into the world daily. So, it is what it is.
Did that young lady compare herself?
Yes, she did.
Were there negative or positive impacts
That thing did a number on her, it had a negative impact.
Comparison not only kills one, and puts one in bondage, but it also reduces one self-esteem, and self-worth and makes me feel lonely, frustrated, and miserable.
That young girl was me and comparison did a number on me, but I am glad that I was able to see it and work on myself. It was never an easy journey but I am glad that I could go back to my old self and be the lady that sees people win, and succeed and celebrates their win and success with them without feeling intimated by their success because I am not there.
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