realisations

so, we've not really spoken for about a month now. we used to talk for hours. nearly half the day

and now its dead air.

i feel ... lost...

like i was getting to know you, to read the book, and then i had to return it to the library, overdue

been watching 'you' again. it creeped me out a little, so i stopped 2 episodes before the end of season 1

but then i started again. maybe i was lonely?

who knows

binged s2 in a week. something about the purity of love?

bam, season 2 ends with a WTAF moment

so on i go... season 3, episode 1...

and it made me cry

for, in love's story, i see your own

and realise, while she's telling joe, about herself, that i, too, was suffering from joes affliction

i was not seeing the real you, only the person i wanted to see. how, can i be the best friend possible, if im not even listening properly?

and for that, i apologise.

you have no idea how amazing you are. im so sorry that people have peopled you. id like to try to be the person that would change the narrative.

why is it the person that wants to help all the people, has the emptiest inbox?