That darn pink house...
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For the longest period of my life, I kept dreaming of a single place I most feared to be in. A place filled with an evil shadow always pulling me back in when I least expect it.
I'll be sitting in a room suddenly, observing the walls and such, faded a bit and semi weak to move. Then suddenly, I see where I am.... The place where the most fear lies. I can't move. I want to break free of it's clutches. I try hard to wake up.
Many years ago while I was still a very small child, I moved into a small house. It was pink on the outside. Two windows on the front and a wooden door in the middle with a front porch with roof.
Upon entering the house, you would see immediately the bathroom door in front of you but not without going past the living room in which the front door opened to. To the left is a bar separating the small kitchen. Walking towards the bathroom ahead, is a small hallway that turns left towards my old room, and to the right where the master bedroom was.
That was the jist of the space. It wasn't much but it more than I could handle. For you see, this place haunted me in my youth in more ways than I could possibly imagine. It shaped my current life's interest into researching aliens, dreams, occultism, etc.
I slept in this house unaware of the victim I would become to its own hell.
It was the place where I experienced my first, second, third, and 7th , etc interdimensional abductions, strange alien encounters during sleep paralysis with floating over my body and being taken into space, or being experimented on right there in bed by many shadow beings with oblong heads and big eyes.
The traumatic experiences never left my soul as even to this day, I keep finding myself back there. Still afraid but, confronting it this time. Each time I have it a dream there, I have more control and am able to face it. I would not put it past that I am being reeled in, but I don't think that whatever is reading me back there again has any real control as it did before.
I would try hypnotic therapy to reveal repressed memories from that time if I could afford it, but for now I am on my own facing these inner demons. Finding the source of it all to not to force it away, but to accept it as part of myself but under a new light.
My lantern flickers but it will never go out. Diving once again into the darkest depths of my soul, figuring out what happened and why. I may never know. But after researching what I have found within, I saw I was not the only one. And I am not alone.
The most vivid and most powerful dream your mind ever concocted to exist for you is the one your living in right now.
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Dreams can be rough. I haven't had the traumatic experiences you mention, but a few weeks ago I had a horrible dream that I have been coping with every waking moment since. Just thinking of it enough to write this clenches a fist in my gut, and grief and anxiety threaten to overwhelm me.
I am confident my dreams are just dreams, and my reality isn't forecast or prophesied in dreams, so I only have to deal with the emotional trauma of the incidents in the dream, because the real world is a separate thing. I wish I could say that was true for you, but I cannot because I haven't been in your shoes and haven't been through what you have.
I am glad you know you will overcome it.
Thanks!
As this world gives us an experience so do dreams. I'm not convinced dreams really are just dreams but a separate realm where our conscious soul travels to. Sometimes, I think we may not have the ability to control what we do, but we do on how we respond to the relationship of our experience.
Thank you for you sharing that part of you. I think dreams also is our soul trying to communicate with us in this realm the best way it can, while we have this limiting factor called a brain to understand it.
Cheers mate!
I actually am informed that human consciousness isn't an individual affair, but is comprised of multiple participating entities. Human bodies are comprised of trillions of cells, and it is our individual cells that are the sources of our conscious minds. In addition to our own cells, our gut fauna also contribute to our consciousness. There is a mechanism that suppresses our memory forming operations while we sleep, and we largely do not remember our conscious intellectual operations while we sleep for reasons of coordinating this assemblage of many contributors, and dreams are some necessary means of ironing out such implementation of consciousness - and may also be routes to communication with other beings than ourselves.
I certainly do not have a full and complete understanding of these things, but have managed to route around the ban on recollection of intellectual conscious operations while we sleep enough times to grasp the above facts.
Also, I will be forced to cease supporting you if you continue to support the account I am deprecating via flags. Please do not counter my operations in that way, so that I do not have to stop providing you resources with which you counter my endeavors.
Thanks!
That's understandable.
You mean wolf? I don't know why you are down voting him has he caused some sort of abuse? Or something?
I mean no disrespect, but if it's a personal issue between the two of you then please keep it at that otherwise I would like to know what the deal is between the two of you.
When I sent the tip it was before I seen who sent the DV. I was actually confused as to why. Then I saw he was also DVing you too.
I understand your point to not want to give recourses to counter your DV. It's perfectly reasonable. But from my perspective, I don't also want to have my actions limited by not receiving donations.
I'll cease for now, but I would like to see the two of you get along again if at all possible.
This is true as well and something I believe in, that everything no matter how small or big has consciousness. The planets, the stars, and the galaxies and thus, the whole entire universe.
The hermetic principals depict this as well, the all is mind. The mind is all.
Were all in one big melting pot as they say.
I don't understand much of it myself, the closest thing I got to understanding it is my own experiences and the shared experiences of many individuals also hint strongly at what we are saying.
For example DMT experiences of many people have many similarities between them despite never have had it before and never had contact with someone who has had it before the day they did it. Encounters of other beings welcoming them back after "a long time". Sort of, "hey man we've missed you where you been?" From these other dimensional encounters. Things like that. I think it really adds some positive light to the "are we alone in this universe and is there life after death".
I have read too many reports of highly adversarial encounters to willingly indulge in DMT, particularly after my own recent experience dreaming. I am not exaggerating the grief and anxiety it caused me, and is continuing to cause me. I realize my suffering is a result of my insufficient psychological readiness, and am undertaking to meet that challenge, but I am sure you are aware that requires extremely deep and intimate management of our personal worldview, which is never a light and casual task.
I have made every possible endeavor to do so. I am absolutely willing and able to do so. My record shows that only when without recourse have I ever DV'd anyone, and then only as little as possible. That will always be my policy, but I cannot control anyone else, and must react to threats when my proactive efforts have failed. Words weren't weapons enough for him, and simply laying down and taking abuse will not suffice me in the face of his attacks. Frankly, I am just as baffled as you are.
I wish his actions did not affect you, but, again, I am not in control of his account.