💜Mommy's Mental Health - Chapter 84- Forgetting To Breathe💜

I've fallen into the trap of chaos and unrealistic goals and deadlines of starting my own business. I have forgotten what I told myself in the beginning. That starting is the hardest part. Building a name for yourself and actually building a client base takes time and a serious amount of effort. When I'm not baking I'm marketing or working out costs and frankly I'm exhausted.

I'm neglecting myself and my family...

After throwing money and an incredible amount of money at baking ingredients, I feel like such a failure. I've stayed up till 4am, I've worked till I've cried, and although I planned things a lot better this time around, I do feel like I'm literally doing this for nothing. But as @zakludick reminded me, I'm not.

I want to do this but it's hard to market just using social media. Claire's Crazy Cakes is so precious to me and I'm determined to somehow get it off the ground.

It hasn't all been bad as I have received some incredible and invaluable advice from my previous employers and colleagues in the industry who are now some of my closest friends.

I definitely also mustn't forget the incredible support, whether it's actually physically helping me with products or supporting me with love, of my precocious family who have had my back, no matter what. @zakludick @aimeludick @merenludick and @matthew-williams … Thank you.

I also had an incredible donation of a brand new oven, just in time for the minikitchen to stop working. I am so immensely grateful for this. It's absolute insanity that I was working solely out of such a tiny oven. I cannot believe how much space there is in the new oven. Its way more that even my old large oven. I have now baked biscuits, carrot cake and chocolate cake in my new oven and I can definitely say it bakes like a dream.

But I'm forgetting myself. Today I finally had a proper bath and washed my hair. Just doing that and putting on some clean comfy clothes felt so good. Really caring for myself seems to have fallen through the cracks.

As soon as I took my acrylic nails off, I've been suffering terribly with the regrowth and terrible sensitivity of my nail beds. I mean, yes they are finally growing out but they're so thin

I have to be so gentle with them as far as filing goes and general use. It's crazy but I'm so used to having relatively long nails, regardless of the fake ones, that without them, it's felt like losing a limb.

I mean, I've been doing the real absolute necessities when it comes to personal hygiene, but it was so lovely to rub moisturizer into my face and hands. It absorbed so fast as my skin was so thirsty.

Blow-drying my hair also felt so wonderful. Aside from it being an absolute necessity in the cold weather we've been having, it also warmed me up and made me feel loved somehow.

I have been so busy with the bakery that I have fallen horribly behind with my studies and my activity here on hive. I have over 100 notifications to deal with and I just haven't had the time.

Well, at least I have a shitload of cake, right?

In fact, I'm defos going to go eat that stuff I was taking selfies with right now with a giant cup of tea, before taking a well deserved nap.

I will have some time to get there tomorrow or on the weekend with my admin tasks as I have a custom cake that needs to be iced and finished with an edible print my tomorrow afternoon. I've already baked the cake and my god it looks delicious. I can't wait for Meren's birthday because lawd my chocolate cake is good!

And then it's the weekend... and Sunday is mother's day. I'm going to take some tome out to gorge myself on my own baked goods and binge watch series <3

Let's pray that in the last few days before Mother's day, I miraculously sell out.
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