Mommy's Mental Health - Chapter 90 - I Had a Dream Last Night

I had a dream last night
I was shopping with my mom in the 80's
There were haberdashery stores everywhere
Lots of pretty things for my hair
They just don't have shops like that any more
I remember it was cold but I had a purse full of money
They didn't want my coins though,
they wanted old money.. .R5.00 notes and small change
I saw wedding dresses and dreamed of looking like a princess when I grew up

I had a dream last night
I was holding my mothers hand
I felt safe by her side
And we looked through isles of buttons and other small items you just can't buy anymore
No one fixes their clothes anymore. They just cast them aside and buy new things
We were further up the main road than from where we lived in Claremont
Maybe Rondebosch or the start of Mowbray
We hailed down a proper South African Taxi for the next part of or journey
I scrambled for the right currency in my purse
My mother paid though
I grew up poor you know. Riding in taxis was part of every day life
We didn't have a car
My mother taught me taxi etiquette... how people would pass their d=fare forward to the door man
Sometimes, we didn't have enough
But they'd take us along anyway
I remember their kindness
The trust
How it felt to be jammed in between as many passengers as possible
My mother taught me how to hail them, how to speak to them and to
Always respect the driver, and thank him at the end of the journey

I had a dream last night
it was 1998 and I was auditioning for the play
It was the school's first proper play
And I so badly wanted a part of it
In the audition, my first try was nervous and almost no sound came out
I begged them and they let me try again... and I blew the hall away
We were doing the Wizard of Oz that year
I didn't want to be Dorothy or one of the Ozites, although I was dying to be part of the play. Surely I would have landed something, even if it was small.
I wanted the best role. The Wicked Witch of the West
We waited weeks for the cast list and when it came out, I couldn't believe my eyes
Not only was I part of the play but I landed the role I had dreamed of

I had a dream last night
Of memories locked inside
Of who I was before the world chewed me out and spat me out
In my dream I came to the realization'
That that the little talented girl was still inside me
And I owed her much more than the life I've been living

I had a dream last night...
And this morning I slept right through the night until the birds began to sing
I haven't been able to do that for weeks now
Worry and anxiety being all consuming
But last night I slept the whole night through
I had a dream last night
That winds are changing and that I have the power to bring myself back to the light
And then everything will fall into place

I had a dream last light
I was supposed to go to New York, Los Angeles and London
And become a Broadway star
I realized my life is not over.
I still have much time to live.. and so much left to give
It's time to brush myself off and find "me" again

I had a dream last night

I had a dream last night....