MUTE

The last time that I heard my phone ring out was some three, maybe four years ago. It was the song, Been Calling by Maleek Berry. Before it, it was 'Katapult by Reelado Banks' and before that was 'Awww by D'ija'. I can't recall anymore beyond that.

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These were just songs I liked(and still do) for no particular reason. Funny how I think about them now and recall certain moments. Been calling was just perfect. The intro went like; "are you there? My baby, are you there..." Just too good.

I wasn't one to switch ringtones very quickly. I would stick with one for months and years until one day, possibly when I switched phones or something happened with my phone that made everything restart thus taking me back to the default phone tone before I changed it out, I didn't change easily.

Since after Been Calling, my phone has been on silent. Oh, I think that before the whole silent thing, I used the default tone for a while, only a short while. And then I reduced the volume a little and then a little, and then I turned it off totally.

You may wonder how I get to take calls. I do, too, sometimes. My friends say they never hear my phone ring, but they always see me grab it and swipe to take a call. Interestingly, I think I developed this connection with my device so much that I need not be looking at my screen to know my phone's ringing. It's weird, but it's how it is.

I battled anxiety for a while. I still struggle a bit there. It's one reason I love absolute calm plus darkness(I mean, the quietness it brings). My heart would skip at the unexpected ring of a phone, even as little as notifications rings. I hated that skip and how fast and hard my heart would pound in my chest and the moments I had to try to calm myself.

So, I'm there, at that point where I don't see me making any turn and/or picking new tunes. You can say I went from classic ringtones to mute. And right now, It sure would feel very strange if I had to hear/see my phone ring after so long. It's all good for me this way.

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