COULDN'T 'DO ME' IN OCTOBER

Last month was October, yeah? You don't have to answer that question. It's rhetorical, but the thing is, I don't get how the time/days are going by so fast. You must have wondered, too.

October was a lot. I mean, I had exams that were being postponed with every waking day, which was a new trend to me, by the way, considering my school keeps up to their set calendar. I could quite understand the incidents that led up to that. Maybe.
In addition, at the time, I wasn't sure if I wanted them to keep pushing it or just let me write and take my leave cause I was very exhausted and falling in and out of health but for the fact that I was not prepared enough to sit for the exams.

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When finally it did come to an end, on a Friday, I felt much relieved and couldn't wait to go back home although I had to put a number of things together which should be instrumental to my having a productive yet restful break. Well, I didn't have the patience enough to wait to put the stuff together before leaving. The next day, Saturday, I moved. Guy, I too like house.

Returning home from school, I had to do a lot of things first(I was already mentally prepared for them) and mostly they were all to ensure that I enjoyed a calming, inviting and rejuvenating space. I worked on them as I could, but...
Do you ever think that when you have things well planned out both in your books and in your mind, when it's eventually the time to live them up to reality, they get frustrating somehow? Even if it's things that you've done before. I like to think that the eagerness and over-anticipation waters it all down. I don't know if that's right.

Anyway, I couldn't get a lot of things done last month. A lot that I could not share on here(I apologize). But, the chief reason why should be owing to the lapses in my wellness that I faced. I had to deal with catarrh, which was terrible and often takes weeks before I get healed of it and is sometimes. It usually marks the hint of ill health or something in me. Usually, I'm the one person who would fall ill just once in , say, five years. I had catarrh, severe headache, hot eyes, a head that didn't feel like mine, and I felt cold always. Worst of all, I had recurring aches from a hole in my tooth. Was maddening.
So, last month, I was tired a lot and in excruciating pain. So much more than I had ever experienced ever.

I take pride in my looks, even if I'm home. I feel like I give more attention to myself when I'm home than when I'm outside. Usually, when I get home from school, it's a time to revisit all of my personal care and grooming lifestyle and try to live them up daily and revive the good habits that I might have lost from all the abnormalities of being outdoors.

So, then, I missed out on being tender to myself. Everything was a rush. Everything I did for my was 'xyshhhxxx.' No time, no energy, nothing. I couldn't do proper care and grooming or looking after. My dieting was poorer. Sometimes, I ate just once in a full day, and it was just a small bowl of cereals. I did not even take liquids enough, not even water. Me, who usually downs glass after glass of water, struggled with taking a glass-full daily. My routine was a mess. I was in disarray, even though that's not an excuse. Even when I sort of got a hang of myself, I kept waiting for everything to align, like I didn't know any better. It made me sad that I missed out on 'doing-me' even though it wasn't exactly my fault. However, I'm slowly getting into the flow, and that is good for me.

This is already too long a read. I should stop here.

This brings me to the end of this read(semi-rant), which is a response to the NovemeberInleo prompt for day #12.
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