A PERSONALITY TRAIT THAT HAS TO GO

Sitting in this salon where I had originally gone to groom and polish my nails but sort of changed my mind and decided to leave it for another day, for the day when I would go to have my hair made, while I read through this prompt for the first time, my answer was all too glaring for me to see.
I don't know if there's a name for it - well, I think that there is only that it's not at the top of my head, so I just can't place it. So, as you read through, if it strikes you, do well to notify me in the comment section, I'd appreciate it, okay? Okay.

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So, back to the story, before I moved back home from school, I had in mind, plus my pals and I had all said we'd pamper ourselves a little since our department was spittle too strict - no false nails, no nail paintings, no long nails, no colored hair(just black), little to no jewelry, on and on. We had wanted to, before we resumed for the next semester, indulge ourselves a little. I planned to, too. But I've been home, for say, a week and yet nothing. I walked to the saloon a few days back and walked out. And it's the thing with me. I want to do stuff and I go through thinking it way too much and then switching things up or point-blank pushing it until a time I suppose it would be better done and then, I end up not doing it at all.
Oh, I think I find the word for it. It's over-thinking. Nah, maybe it's procrastination. Or maybe it's laziness... I doubt so. Or is it indifference? Oh, maybe it's just me being laidback. Oh, I don't even know. What if it's a combination of every one of the above? Well, maybe.

This is one aspect of me that I don't like. The fact that I make a plan in all my eagerness and when it's so close that I can feel myself doing it, I stop in my tracks and just give a reason why I shouldn't be doing it in that moment. I mean, returning home, I had plans. Things I set to do, for a duration and with plans on how to go about them. I understand that there are limitations to some, but how about the others without? Phew! It's exhausting, and one thing I never want to feel at the end of the day is regret. I don't want to have to beat myself up for chances missed and for not giving a shot. I wish that writing solves it all. Maybe after writing this and reading through, I'd get my acts up and do what I should. I wish I was only a little spontaneous. Just a little.

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