Should I or should I not?

Well, have you ever been in that bizarre situation where you are torn in between two opinions and you are wondering whether you should do something or not? Well, I found myself in that similar situation today. Well, a little back story here. This period I have been very rich. Well, there has been plenty money all around me cos right now I am speaking my future. I’d rather choose to speak positively right now.

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So been that I have had plenty money this period and it’s really been lot to grapple with lately bills and all. Well, I am not taking care of anyone side our last born that calls me once in a while to ask for urgent 2k but I have warmed her to stay away from me. I told her to come and start writing and start getting her own money but she doesn’t want to listen hence I have banned her from billing me.

Well, that’s aside and as I was ranting, as of yesterday, I didn’t have any dime on me and I was supposed to be in a meeting yesterday but I couldnt because of that and the next morning is Sunday. I didn’t want to be at home and somehow I didn’t want to call my younger siblings for money. At least to still have a little self respect for myself. I decided to ask a friend of mine in the hostel to lend me a thousand naira and I would give her back later. She gave me and I used it for transportation to church.

When I got back home, I ate and slept and did some things I had to attend to online and then there was this friend of mine I wanted to ask for money in church but I didn’t know how to ask because it’s not in me to go about asking people for money. I find it very difficult to ask from people as I don’t want to be a burden to anyone. If I ever reach out to someone for money, then it has really choked. I actually got talking with him in church but couldn’t bring myself to ask. It felt so weird so I had to start going home.

Later this night I had another thought to try and reach out to him. I had to explain how it was actually hard to ask and why. I didn’t ask for any particular amount and in what was a shock to me, the flash response and the way he reached out to me got me tearing. I broke down in tears and I really felt very grateful. I thanked and thanked him over and over for his kindness. I was so relieved I had opened up to ask.

I understand that sometimes it could be a lot to deal with having to ask people but somehow it’s good if we open up sometimes and ask for help. Our help could just be an ask away. I am not an advocate of people billing people every now and then but when situations arises where we are in a fix, it’s ok to ask people for help and then be very grateful when they reach out to us cos it could be a lot of sacrifice on their part. Well, I was in between should I or should I not, I am glad I did.

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