A change? Yes please: #243

Everyone has something that they'd like to change about themselves. It might be a physical thing; a character trait; or anything at all. What is the ONE thing you would choose to change about yourself and why?

Times has come and gone and there was a time in my life that I would have done anything to just be two feet taller. Now I have come to embrace myself and love myself for the way God created me but the self love and acceptance I now had for myself just came few months back. I had always struggled with my height and stature and had always wanted to be a little bit taller.

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A little back story to demonstrate how badly I would have loved to change my height. In my second year in school, one of those days, I remember vividly that We held a two days intensive prayer meeting where our pastor preached from Isaiah 60 and he preached so strongly that we were asked to pray intensively using those scriptures as anchor to our prayers.

The prayer meeting was a heated one but in the midst of all those prayers, I only had one prayer request. Lord add two inches to my height. Now the irony is that at that point I wasn’t sure whether our height was measured in inches or feet but I know it was one of those so while I was praying I told God that I just need him to add two to my height, I also told him that I was confused as to whether it was two inches or two feet but all I just know is that I don’t like my height and I want to be taller.

I was smallish is stature and that always made people look down on me so much because of that, I had always wanted to be taller. If there was anything I wanted to change it was my physical look. I wanted to be taller and maybe a little chubbier. My mum did make the issue worse as she would always tell me that I am looking to tiny like someone who is not eating well and one time she remarked that that was one of the reasons why I wasn’t married. That men like their women big.

Well, my not liking my height made me wear heels all the time. Everywhere I go had me wear heels so much that I am beginning to reap the repercussions of too much wearing of high heeled shoes. Well, I think God didn’t answer that prayer because over time not much have changed about my height. I have added a little weight and looks a little bigger but not taller.

I look very far from my age and people never believe my age when I tell them. People praise me for looking far younger than my age and some say they wished they had my stature and looks. It took me hearing this over and over again to begin to appreciate my self and the way God created me. So no changing of heights anymore. I am wonderfully and fearfully made by God.

If there was anything else to be changed, it has to be inward change, a character that could be worked on such as cutting down on too much procrastination on things I have to do and being more intentional about pushing myself but definitely not my height anymore cos I love me just the way God made me. He did a perfect job and couldn’t have been better.

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