Have you been Grateful today?

Hi, come back with me Arveno from Surabaya city, Indonesia. Today i want to sharing about my lately feeling. On late Sunday my parents bring my son to their home and that makes me feel lonely this week. Usually i feels annoying when my son distrub me when i am work, and it annoys me whenever he wants this and that. But, every habit that formed into my life. It makes me getting used with that atmosphere. So, if the habit is gone, it feels empty and it like using drugs. Something missing. It is like when i am not doing workout. And the badside. It turns out makes me frustating. Thats funny right?
So both situation makes me frustating and flustered.
Thats why i need to feel grateful with everything in my life. Sometimes i am not feeling grateful when i have it. Same with health, wealth, relationship, etc. Maybe almost human do that too. And in this moment i really need to be grateful. If i am not starting to feel frateful it will make me sorrow on every moment since it need 2more days before i am going back to vacation on my hometown and come back with my son.

After thinking many times and in the right time and i means when i am on road like in this picture

I am starting to thinking that my son is really a grace or even better he is angel sent for me. And what i am doing lately is pure for him. I dont know why i want tp do it anyway. I am never doing anything for someone else before even for my wife, if i dont want to do something, i still stubborn and not doing it. But thats really different when my son asking me for something. And when i am thinking back from he was a baby i never felt that he is my burden. I felt that he was my support system right now besides my wife and my friends or even better. His presence that gives me courage everyday. His presence that gives spirit to me all day. I felt tired all day. But when night comes and after he said good night to me, i felt proud everyday. Thats why i wont let him down as a father. Thats why i change my life. From the bad boy to be a good father. I quit alcohol, and recently i quit smoke. And even better, i am startinf to work out, so i can having good chance to accompany and see my son little longer. And i can feel proud everytime see him. Even my financial plan is for him. I dont know this is my responsibility as fatger or not. But it happens automaticaly. My brain and my heart volunteer by itself.

I dont know other people feeling like whay i feel or not. But yeah. Kid is really grace. Many people said that kid is angel that God entrust it to us. And yeah i kinda agree with that quote. And it is almost a year since i decided to terminate my second child. A daughter because anonchepaly. And i am still sad sometimes. I cannot forgetting the pain, the sadness, the guilt deep down in my heart. But, life must carry on. Thats why i need to be gratefull with what i have now. I am sorry if todays content make you guys sad. I just need to release my sadness from my heart by writting. Thanks to Hive i can write it without worrying my close relation read it since they are not in this platform. And see you in the next content