Today I made a brave decision and choice

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After you read this title you're maybe thinking of many scenarios where a man can act bravely, and I didn't mean to disappoint you but this brave decision was nothing more than buying cigarettes before I go home.

I'm not saying this to defend myself in anyway but I've been smoking for more than 10 years now, and how old am I? 24! Which means I picked up this destructive habit when I was very young, unfortunately

Being victorious over your temptations and cravings is super difficult, it could be cigarettes, sugar, shopping, gambling, drugs, it could be many things, but the principle stays constant. It's not easy to oppose your desires, and today I did so.

I thought if I bought cigarettes now, I'll keep smoking till I sleep, and then I'll wake up with cigarettes and will continue to smoke. But now I don't have a single cigarette, so at least I've saved myself a hundred puffs or more.

Another thing is; it's very easy not to smoke only if you never smoke that first one of the day, and once you do; it becomes nearly impossible to stop burning cigarettes and your lungs till you fall asleep.

Smoking to me is the one rotten apple that spoils the whole barrel; I work really hard on developing myself every day all day, and then smoking wipes my progress, at least that's how I feel.

I've tried quitting smoking hundreds of times before, and I admit it was never easy, but I never lost hope, and I always had faith that there will come a time where I'd wake up and never smoke again. I hope and wish that this is the day, and that I'll wake tomorrow and turn the page on smoking once and for all. Amen.