2025: its mid year, ano na?

Hi hiver friends 😊

Its June, how the days fly. Life still goes on and that is one great blessing to be thankful for. Ano na? How are you doing? Time for a little self reflection.

The Island City life has molded me now into someone who I become. Its better maybe in something but not doing well to some, weight gain is the worse. I never
planned to be this big now from 53 kg to 60kg. The lifestyle here is totally different thus the changes hits me. I am left here thinking about what I do wrong. I see it but it is a hard fight because the wrong eating habits becomes normal. My body feels strange as if it has the mind of its own. I don't like this, hoping for a change before its too late. I have been trying to be more active by walking to control it. I feel frustrated when I see day by day it is not improving yet becomes worse. I don't know anymore but hey, I would not give up for this. One day, I will get back to this writings and hopefully be able to say. You did it.

The choice that I had three years is making me. Age growing and have met people in my life that I didn't think I would when living mostly alone in the mega city. Its the environment that differs.

I didn't know that I could stay this long here in the Island City. While living busy being immersed in the job that sustain my living, my mind is thinking what if I choose the other way. Its not regret but wondering. I couldn't get the answer easily. I question and talk to God everything even those wrongful choices that offended Him.

One of what I have planned is to be active here writing but its not happening to me yet. There are so much distractions mainly, browsing reels and videos that doesn't stop feeding us with funs and interest. There is always a fight for self control so we could do the things that matter.

There is no consistency in my writing. Sometimes, I looked up articles and read and curate but hey I am a creator too in here. Why I couldn't compose those thoughts into a draft? Sometimes I am lost. There is always me, asking myself the why's. But in that self reflecting, comes with understanding that I can not and will now force myself.

Today is holiday for Muslims community. We were supposed to have a day off but our leaders choose to exchange for tomorrow so we can have a two days off straight. I am sitting near the window catching some time to write just because I feel like it. It actually is working. Who would have thought I could write whatever in my mind today in a little time before coming to work.

See, its not about longest hours spending the draft but the thoughts that comes to mind that we could create. Jot it down, or you may lost it. A reminder for me today.

Good drizzling morning everyone. Time to go. See you next time.