LoH 265: I wanna Be Forever Young

Good day, my fellow hivians! It's good to be here again this week. I'm here to share my entry on one of the prompts we have and that is whether I feel younger and older for my age. I will say I feel younger than my age, while this should be a good feeling because everyone wants to look younger; nobody wants to get old, I sometimes feel bad about it.

I am 32 years old lady. I take after my mother's stature; average height and slim body. I can easily pass for a teenager. Most times I consume more portion of food, just to add weight but it's not happening. I check my weight almost every week but no significant changes. The most painful part of this stature is that it usually comes with more disrespect than honour. Even though I am married, people sometimes look down on me and address me as if they are addressing a teenager. It's usually very embarrassing in public. How many people will I be telling my age?

I attended a programme sometime ago, the seating arrangement were pasted accordingly for children, teenagers, singles and the married and I went to sit at the married section. Unfortunately, one of the protocols approached me and said, "Let mummy be, there are seating arrangements, the teenagers are over there". C'mon! As if I went there to sit with my mother. It was the greatest embarrassment. I kept wondering why she chose to embarrass me that way. Was I blind or illiterate that I couldn't read the seating arrangements? Even if she didn't know my age, was that how to go about it? Telling a married woman that teenagers were over there? I just kept mute, I didn't know the right words to say. All eyes were on me, until someone said, "...But she's married, look at her finger!" That's how petty many have become. Even if I'm not wearing a ring, the culture of respect should not be easily forgotten.

I wonder how people feel comfortable talking down and underestimating who they are just meeting for the first time, just for their stature. Imagine, someone had to gift me an artificial bombom, to always wear to functions in order to command respect. I will show you the picture in this post, but does it have to get to that point before we respect ourselves?

No wonder, girls nowadays solely y depend on cosmetic surgery and fake BBL to look good because they have lost their confidence, due to people's bad comments of "she's too tiny", "You look so lanky". These aren't good words to pass on our fellow gender. It pushes them off their originality.

The recent embarrassment happened when I went to apply for the position of a subject teacher at a tutorial center and the head of the centre told me they weren't sure I would be able to handle the students because most of them were grown ups, and huge. I couldn't believe my ears. I was wondering when being chubby and big becomes a criterion for getting teaching jobs.

Seriously, I have seen a lot that make me feel I'm younger than my age, and most of these experiences are so berating and depressing. Thank God for blessing me with an elder sister who constantly reminds me how great and beautiful I look. She teases me a lot on how badly she envies my stature but I don't take her seriously. My sister is beautiful and bold. She can pass for my mother though she's just 40 years old. Unlike me, my sister feels older than her age and she rarely eats like me for the fear of obesity. She buys all manners of product to slim down and she does regular exercise. Her words always lift me when I'm down. She often talks about the' irony of life' whenever I complain of having the look she wanted so badly.

Overtime however, I have learnt to be grateful to God and appreciate my look, because I think it's better that I look younger. I have embraced myself and discard every artificial enhancement. I don't even wear the boms someone gifted me because it's different from me. I am wonderfully and beautifulIy made by God. Iam just me!

Thanks for reading.
All pictures are mine.