There is this inner urge that pushes happiness from within that I might not have the correct name for what I am writing today. But I know that the happiness that I feel is not without but from within.

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The world is a place that no matter what you do, what you have or even who you have with you sometimes you get bored and looks else where for happiness. The thing is that you may not even place your hands on the major reason why I want out, but is inevitable. You can't shy away from it once in a while.

We battle for our happiness in one way or the other. Looking for ways to be happy aside what we have or do. How do we get it done?
Something happened to be last month and I was so sad that I felt like going away from a while. Is not also bad if we do give ourselves a break from home at times. In my own case once I am around my grown up kids will love that I talk before every work is done at home. This sounds weird to me because people outside thinks that I am actually enjoying myself now that I have all my kids grown and they can do stuff for me without any problem. How wrong they are. I use to think like that before. Once I see a woman who's kids are grown, I will just envy her and wished that I am in her level. Hahaha 😂. Now I know better. The bigger the kids, the bigger their problems. The smaller kids have just small problem, but not the bigger ones.

When it got out of hands, I decided to travel out for a while. And it helps me cool off a little. I stayed for six days in the place where I traveled to. When I woke up in the morning I don't have to compel anyone to do any work at all. I just wake up, pray, for out for my morning exercise that I hardly observe at home. When I get back home I will bath and take my break fast. Sleep again after moving around to allow my food to digest. I did it for six days and on the seventh day I was ready to go back home. It feels so refreshing and I love every moment that I spent there. Sometimes this is how I get refreshed again to continue the journey of life and it helps me alot. At least I don't need to think of what you cook for the family and how it will come.

For most times when I will have to be around no matter how I am feeling, I just draw strength from my inside. Yes. I believe that I have what it takes to overcome that battle and get my happiness intact. We can find happiness by praying when situation gets out of hand and is trying to choke up to death. For me I think that the best way to fight this battle is by drawing straight from what I carry inside. That is the Holy Spirit. He alone has been helping me in most cases when I had to battle just to stay happy. That is the reason why I don't play with my relationship with God. It helps me alot and I can give it up for anything in the world.

In conclusion, I have the Holy Spirit inside of me in the situation where I have to face any challenge that comes my way and he can fix it for me.