Anxious Me!

Many times I have to battle with anxiety. They said it is not easy to be a man. I never understood that well not until I got myself experiencing what adulthood is all about. It’s time I had to sort myself, think about my life and how I want it to be shaped, and make critical decisions that could either turn my existence for better or for worse.

I really can't say exactly how I got over my anxiety in the past, but I think I have learned to fight my battles till I triumph. This served as a chance to overcome whatever situation I found myself in. It never turned out to be a big deal for me.

One thing I try to avoid as much is making complaints. Instead of making them, I rather work on finding solutions. I hardly blame others for my own mistakes. I prefer working on my failures till I succeed. I have noticed that the more I rely on others the more I have to fight some hidden battles.

Anxiety comes in different forms. It could come from family issues, workplace, friendships, financial challenges, and many more. But getting to understand that it's just a phase of our life and it won’t last forever is the first way out of it.

We can't have everything we want. That's certain. So this is when we start feeling anxious about them. Maybe we get to put our hopes high on someone or something to help us solve our problem, then in the very end get disappointed. The fear of maybe losing out on those things is anxiety, and if care is not taken it might lead to unexpected conditions where one will even find it difficult to overcome.

The nature of my job makes me feel anxious most time. There are times when I will just have to be alone in my thoughts without anyone disturbing me. At times I will opt for rest or sleep for some time to clear my thoughts. Most importantly are times when I will just decide to spend it on myself, eat good food, and watch some movies. All of these are my ways to battle anxiety.

An instance where I had to fight anxiety head-on was when I was expecting to see my name on the graduating list while I was in my final year. I was on the brink of my heart, full of fear and uneasiness. This was because my supervisor, who happened to be our exam officer in the department, said I would fail some of her courses.

At some point when I realized that it was almost getting over me I could hardly even think straight. I tried several methods to overcome it but to no avail. Not until the day the result was out and I realized I graduated. That was the only time I got peace of mind.

I have studied myself to be in that mood most time. But the more I experience it, the more I find ways of tackling it. In my workplace, I set my expectations so low. When I anticipate an outcome from what I did, I will rather take my mind off it, then if it turns out well then it's a plus for me.

This is my response to the HIVE LEARNERS weekly prompt in the hive-learners community for the Week 163 Edition 1 and the topic to be discussed is ANXIETY