I Want To Take Control Of My Life

I've been unhappy recently. I feel like my folks have high expectations for me. I need a break from everything. I need them frequently.
I want to travel, I want to see things. I can't count on my folks since they aren't travel people.

Also, if I can travel or even get out more, maybe that will help my crypto blogs. Perhaps that's why my content flops. Folks want to see something different for a change. If a eatery doesn't add new items to its menu occasionally, patrons will get bored and stop showing up. Some of y'all may like travel content. my audience on YouTube may like it

I thought about contacting a friend who lives a few houses down from me. Talk to him about taking trips somewhere. With me, him, and his mom. Or just me and him. I'm not a kid anymore. My mom should trust me with a friend.

Maybe a cross-country road trip. If it's easier to fly/take Amtrak, so be it. I can cover my food or help with gas. or buying my ticket.

I decided I couldn't wait for the chance to do so, I had to chase the opportunity. Now that I'm done helping my grandma with the heating system, aka the thing that kept me broke and struggling for the past 2/3 years, maybe it's time to do something different. Even if we take a trip for Christmas or my birthday. Let's do something different. The last time I went out of town for Christmas was 2007.

Even a little weekend getaway is better than being stuck at home. I want to be a frequent traveler like the people I follow on social media. They could travel for work, still, its a fun thing to do.

The next time I hear from my friend, I'll suggest we text instead of messaging on Instagram. That will make it easier to plan a trip if he's up for it.

I decided enough is enough. If I am sick of the misery, I have to put in the effort to change that. Occasional weekend getaways with my friend are a start.
Let's start with agreeing on a place to go and map out plans. Summer is coming up. Perhaps I could go to Coachella for the first time. Maybe go to a concert.

I missed out on so much when I was broke and unemployed. My friend enlisted in the Marines a month before his birthday in 2017. He graduated in April of 2018.
He attended boot camp in San Diego. I wanted to attend. Unfortunately I could not afford to go. I tried to raise the money on these platforms, but my earnings were too low. I only pulled 2-5 cents a post. I tried changing up my content to no avail.

Then, around June/July, my folks wanted to attend a family reunion. That fell short when my grandpa didn't want to help my grandma pay for the trip. Car rental, hotel fees, etc. If I made enough money on my blog, I could have picked up the slack.

My friend's mom was going to help me if she could afford my ticket. I take it that she couldn't because she said she wanted to stay out of town for a few days after my friend graduated. They came back a day after he graduated. I did not appreciate being ghosted. Just be honest and say, "Hey, I told you I wanted to stay for a few days. Unfortnaly, I can't afford it. I don't feel right letting your folks give you all that money for one day. If we plan another trip, we will notify you in plenty of time so you can save money."

My mom played mind tricks. First, my mom told me to ask how much I will need, under the impression that she will try to help me. Then, when I reported back, my mom got mad at me for telling her. It's fun being autistic.. NOT
She said to ask how much I will need, then talked about finding me some clothes to bring, then had a different story 2 hours later. my autistic ass can't keep up. Pick a struggle already!

anyways. All I can do is look forward to the future.

Take it one step at a time.